Are You Willing?

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.  Matthew 7:7-8

A few weeks back, I was given the news that I would be laid off come the end of the year.  Luckily, I didn't freak out and accepted the news with grace from my boss.  It's not that I didn't want to freak out, but because I'm a firm believer that God is in control.  Yet I have to admit, this is testing me to the core.

Thankfully, I have gotten much encouragement and support from those around me during this time, and I've gotten a lot of opinions on what my next step should be.  Either way, I'm so glad to have people around me that truly care.

But lately, God has asked me a very specific question.  He simply asked, "Are you willing?"  "Am I willing to do what?"  "Willing to completely trust Me."  Am I?  Am I truly willing?  Am I truly willing to put aside what I know in my head to be the logical thing to do, that is to freak out about what is going to happen in this situation.  But just then, after thinking about it for a minute, a peace only explainable by God and only understandable by His Spirit, covers me.  And I can truly answer the question with honesty and sincerity.  "I am willing God."  "I am willing."  While I don't understand it, I am willing to accept it because He simply offers hope to those who truly seek it, listen to His voice and rest their cares upon Him.

Thank you God for allowing me to walk in peace during this time.  I don't know where I am going or what you have for me in the future, but I know it's good.